Thursday, November 09, 2006
One
Where should I start?
Examinations are a few days away and I am no where near ready to taking it. I mean, I've taken notes but I haven't re-read them, for one thing. I'd like to blame it on my classmates, who keep borrowing my notes and taking days to give them back, but I know that, even if I had never given them away, I still wouldn't have used them anyway. That's me: I like to plan, but I never rarely, if not never, follow it.
Then there's my memory problem. I've memorised the same things, the same now-sickening sentences (maa hua al'ariah? al'ariah hua ismun yu'theehir rajul blablabla), but I keep forgetting them. Then I have to memorise them back allll over again.
And one more thing. What is up with all these distractions? Sounds, words, objects begging for my attention everytime I have to study. Is it like a self-built mechanism of the body? Everytime you're about to do something verry important, your mind becomes more open to all the stuff around you? Is that it? Huh? HUH?!?
Worse is the fact that, try as hard as I might, I'm slipping. I hate it when it happens. Who doesn't? I'm slipping, and the bad part is that the people I used to beat in studies are rising above me. They don't see it, because they're not used to seeing me slip below them. They're used to me being a little higher. I don't mean to boast, but it's true. I point it out to my friend, and she doesn't believe me, that kind idiot. No one believes me. Ever.
"Susah seh, Physics."
"Alah, Dee kan pandai, mesti boleh punye."
"Susah seh, Maths."
"Alah, Dee jangan nak bedek ah Dee!"
"Susah seh, Tafsir."
"Awak just action humble jer, Dee. Smorang tahu awak senang hafal bende."
"Ape je Dee!" "Bedek seh Dee!" "Alah, takmo worry ah Dee." "Releks ah Dee!"
I've been thinking, and I've come to the conclusion that I shouldn't really be studying.
It's like this:
Knowledge = Power
Power = Evil
Therefore,
Knowledge = EvilI still have to study anyway. Because no knowledge = failure in exams = certain death.
And yet what am I doing now? Switching on the computer and talking to nobody in particular.
The irony.
5:36 AM
