Friday, May 16, 2008
Eleven
For those of you who know me well enough, you'd know that I make it a habit of mine to fast every Monday and Thursday. It gives me pahala, plus trains me to be patient. Supposedly. I must report that, sadly, the fastings that I have done all these months have not trained me in the patience department whatsoever. I had a pissy evening yesterday and I'm starting to have a sucky morning today. My mum wants me to clean up the room, but I have NO IDEA what to clean as it seems to me as if there's nothing
to clean. Clearly, my mother begs to differ. Also, my ulcers have not shrunk one bit. I'd know - I measure them everyday. Ulcers have never truly bothered me before - I don't know what to do. Zahira suggested I put baking soda on them; Mastari recommended salt. I've decided against both, for fear that my lips would dissolve and I would die in excruciating pain.
ALSO. This computer is going BONKERS, and I seriously believes that it wants to bring me down with it. The computer screen has been switching itself on and off every 10 seconds or so. It's insane!!
Things hardly get to me. I'm hardly stressed or perturbed by anything because nothing much concerns me. But all this! Little annoyances, one after the other, non-stop! I want to cry. I can't do this anymore, I can't TAKE IT!
UGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I CAN'T EVEN VIEW MY OWN BLOG???? WHY - THE - HELL - NOT???
4:23 PM
