Monday, January 12, 2009
Fifty-One
So I was sleeping soundly this morning when I was woken up by my Tok at about 7:15 am.
"Yayi lah talipon."
Ahh. The relatives' how-was-your-o-level-results call. I love my grandparents and I think they're really cool people, but I'll be honest here and say that I've been dreading their call. I mean, what am I supposed to say? Do I tell them
all my results of each and every subject, or do I just say it's okay? Would they try to talk about where I want to go now that I have my results? And, more importantly, will I have to try to make light conversation? I never liked light, polite conversation. It always feels fake. The interest.
But it turns out there was nothing to worry about at all. It was a nice, straightforward conversation.
So how did you do?Okay ah, not bad, alhamdulillah.How many subjects did you take? Did you pass them all?Yeah, 9 subjects.9, that's a lot! What were your best subjects?So on and so forth. At the end he went, "Okay, tahniah dari Yayi and Nyayi eh!" which was sweet.
And that was it.
Silly me.
So I'm going to be honest here and say that I'm actually a little disappointed with some of my subjects because I really expected better (namely Bio and IRK - hah! IRK. I'm so terrible). But there were also some subjects which pleasantly surprised me (Amaths and Maths), so I say it's a fair deal. Overall, I'm pretty happy with what I got, and I thank God fervently for it.
It's over, ja?
I wish we could be talk about this openly, with no fear or trepidation, instead of hiding and pretending as if 4 years of friendship doesn't mean anything.
Also.
After careful consideration and deep deliberation on roller skates yesterday, while skating back and forth in the living room late at night, I have decided to go to Pre-U A-Levels. I realise that it's likely that I will have 2 difficult, uncomfortable years ahead of me, and that the other option - Poly - would be a more enjoyable, refreshing experience. But I have to think long term here. The end results will be worth it, insya Allah.
Which reminds me of a Calvin and Hobbes comic strip where Calvin is debating with himself whether to do his homework or to go outside and play in the snow.
"In the short term, it would make me happy to go play outside.In the long term, it would make me happier to do well at school and become successful.But in the very long term, I know which will make better memories."Snow-playing ensues.
*sigh*
I think we all should try to acquire Calvin's infinite wisdom.
3:36 PM
