Thursday, June 25, 2009
Sixty-Two
For those of you who's been wondering what the HECK has been going on with me these days, here's a quick rundown:
Nothing much.
HAHA TAKE THAT SUCKAZ!!
Yeah, ok, just kidding. I'm sorry. Please still read my blog.
It's June now, but it won't be for long. It ends in a couple of a days, and with its demise comes the revival of the school season. I'm devastated. No, seriously. I'm not just giving some whiny, lazy complaint about the fact that the holidays are over and how I'm not looking forward to it at all... Well, ok, so I am, but hear me out. Here's the deal: never before has my heart been so heavy at the thought of going back. I mean, before, I would have some glimmer of happiness and excitement at seeing my friends and (some of) my teachers again. I might have even been slightly enthusiastic about studying (some of the topics). But this time? Zip. Nada. Nothing. Naught. Zilch. Blank. I could go on and on and copy more words from the thesaurus to show you just how devoid of anticipation for school I am, but you get the idea, and frankly, I've got better things to do than rattle on. Even more frankly, I'm lying. I don't have anything to do.
I don't know why. It's quiet saddening. Apparently, I have nothing at school to pull me in, except for the promise of a ticket to a University. It's not that I don't have a good time at school, it's just that I don't have a
great time. And trust you me, there is a big difference.
There's two things I miss the most about school: the science and geography subjects (heck, I just miss reading an English textbook) and my friends. Duh my friends. There's just a sense of history with these people, you know? They're family. They know who you are, who you're not, and who you want to be (HAHAH total lyric rip-off); and
you know that they have your back no matter what. I mean, just this previous class reunion proves that. None of us truly changed. We talk aout different things now, and we've all gone different places, but we still click as always. I miss that.
Dear God, I hope I'm not the only one still clinging to the class this way. I don't want to be one of these people who just can't seem to get a grip and move on. I think part of the reason I feel so strongly about this is because I'm still in Maarif - it makes the loss harder, and fresher.
Don't worry too much about me, though. I'm cool. I just needed to write this all down.
Yeah, ok, enough. On to brighter things!
These are the things that have made me very happy recently:
1) Friends. How come I never watched Friends? They're hilarious! I spent half of the holidays watching episodes of the show with Kak Han, and the other half watching them on my own. My favourite's Chandler, but I love them all. Good show, good times.
2) Superficial? Maybe, but I'm very happy I got my 'Ceci est un IT BAG' bag. Yeah, it's just a chiplak one, totally fake, cos me about s$17 when the original one is s$100++, but still. I really really like it, cos it looks cool, and it's big, so I can stuff stuff. I like this bag.
3) Playing game demos - again, with Kak Han. Currently playing Airport Mania. Yeah, not very hard core, but I don't care. It's fun.
4) The rearranging of the two rooms! My old bedroom has been converted to a bedroom for all 5 of us, and Kak Han's bedroom is now the study room, also built for 5. Sharing one room together is AWESOME fun, and if there's one thing I'm looking forward to next month, it's the idea of us sisters studying together in a proper learning environment (chewah). Here's hoping it works out. *thumbs up*
5) The KL trip, and the class reunion. I think those are the two events that really stood out for me this month and make me thank God fervently.
6) Staying up late. If you don't understand this, then you don't understand me at all and shouldn't be reading this blog. Not that you'd want to, now that you know I usually have a bedtime of a 9-year-old. If you don't understand what I just said, no need to leave the blog, just continue. I tend to say things nobody gets. That's okay. People still like me. I think.
I think these 6 things are enough to balance out the gloomier introduction of this post. I feel better already! I'm off to bop to Switchfoot now. Have a good one, my children.
6:13 AM
